In attempting to catch up with some people before I go, I recently had the chance to chat with someone a lot senior than I am.
In our little chat, we talked about how some circumstances were downright unfair - and unjust. Being emotional (as always), I got a little upset. What tipped the brewing emo pot over was when I heard the all familiar - "We all just accept it as it is."
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A#1? Annoyance.
Yes, annoyance, literally.
I remember Ps Gary Rucci in one of his sermons asked the whole congregation a few questions to test our levels of annoyance. Slow drivers, bad customer service, rude people, tactless conversations, non-up-to-standard-food, or shopping centers that do not have enough parking bays just when we desperately need one - we all chuckled in agreement.
But when it comes to matters that matter - rape, murder, corruption, injustice, oppression, racism, poverty.. we are hardly as annoyed as when some noob drives at 40kmph on the right lane. Or rather,
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A#2. Apathy.
Perhaps we just. don't. care.
And caring has become costly. Standing up for things that are right and things that matter costs. One's freedom, reputation, lifestyle can be at stake for caring.. too much.
Maybe.. we do care. Just not enough to do anything about things that annoy us.
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A#3. Acceptance.
I sit and wonder about what I should accept - and what I should not. Idealistic tendencies are a laughing stock in this imperfect world. But to what extent should one "just accept" imperfection as it is and not strive for the better, since well, nothing's perfect anyway?
However, in my short-lived 22 years of life with zilch knowledge of what can or cannot be done, I know that in a process of option elimination, "I just accept it the way it is" would be the first to go.
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And it ain't something that's settled by blabbering theoretically anyway. Neither do emotions help. Or a mouth that bypasses the brain most of the time.
It's one such game of strategy. And at the core of which is.. integrity.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours - will always only remain an emotional reaction if it ain't coupled with practical action.
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All these thinking and getting upset makes me restless. And all the more lost at what can be done, if any at all.
Perhaps I should do what's best for now. Sleep.
Nighteos, world of imperfections.
16 years ago
1 comment:
i have 3 As in response to 'tis (as well as the rest of your) blog post(s): affectionate, admirable and (just) awesome writin. i've been inspired, encouraged, challenged and reminded much by it.
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